The Ultimate randInt(-1e99,1e99)

Have you ever felt that deep incertainty?
That kind of incertainty that makes you feel the way you did when you got your reportcard in elementery school?
A fear so deep and so real that it doesn't seem so.
A panic that carries no reason, no logic, no sense.
A frustration so maddening you feel like slapping someone?
An anticipiation so intense, a relief so great you feel like embracing someone until infinity.

What if there was a way to get rid of all these things and make everything happy and wonderful, make everything in the world fun and fancy free? Well let me ask you this: Why would you want to? It's these things that are the very essence of life, the very fabric of our Universe, our reality. What good would life be without fear, panic, how interesting could life be without anger, without something to cry about, something to regret for the rest of your life.

Have you ever noticed that people who pretend that everything in their lives is perfect and put and air of happiness, superiority or holiness around them are quite often the most miserable of us all? Those that seek refuge in institutions without investing time, heart, soul seek refuge in something that isn't there.

Look, the point of this whole tirade is, life isn't black and white, life isn't even gray, it's a rainbow of fuckin' colors that you can't ever even hope to see the rest of you days upon this earth. The good wouldn't be as interesting without the bad and the horror, and the friendships we have couldn't possibly be as amazing as they are wihtout the hatred we share for others and life is too wonderful to be considered just a slew of randomly generated events that happen for no reason without regard to human kind. Life is so wonderful, so unpredictable that it is impossible to feel the way i do when i recieve the opportunity to observe life, during hapiness and turmoil, just the fact that we are able to experience those things brings me an ecstacy so incredible that no words exist to express the way i feel when i see life in action.